Can Emotions Be Controlled?

After I posted my last blog post, life tested me on everything I had written. Of course you can trust life when you’re in a comfortable position. It’s easy to say things are always working out for you, when you’re on a high point. The true test of faith is when you’re at a low point and the future is uncertain.

So I was chilling when I wrote my last blog post. I even thought to myself I must be doing something right because it’s been a while since anything chaotic happened to me. Well the next day I had a rude awakening when I was jolted awake at 7 am by my backyard trees and plants being demolished. My little nature oasis killed. I cried my eyes out and was heartbroken for the plants and animals. 

Later that night I opened my email to a message saying my lease renewal was revoked. Wtf. Overnight, in just a day, everything changed.

The rug was pulled out from under me. Uprooted. Destabilized. The home and garden I poured so much love and time into the last few years, was no longer. 

I lost my mind. Cried like crazy and was in shock. I’m also in the middle of wedding planning so losing my cherished home and having to move, was an extra stressor not in the plans. 

In the middle of major stress your nervous system can get dysregulated, so you have to take your thoughts with a grain of salt. I was activated AF. Old conditioned thoughts popped up around “what did I do wrong to deserve this” and swirling worries and fears about the future. A scarcity mindset surfaced around whether I could find a new home.

Just as I said in my last blog, the judge is conditioned into us by society. Judging something as bad and then feeling like you’re being punished or a victim, is something I’m not immune to either. Luckily I recognized the signs and was able to catch myself after a few days of spiraling out. I knew I had to snap out of it, so I got to work on taking care of myself and regulating my emotions.

I’m devoted to my inner truth of life is always on my side. I reminded myself I can trust something better for me is on the way, and to accept this is an end of a chapter.

‘In times of darkness your greatest magic will come out because you have no choice but trust your power.’

So I went to the beach, I journaled, I walked in nature, I prayed. I meditated and journeyed, asking my higher self and ancestors for support and guidance. I let myself grieve and recharge, to inspire hope within my heart. And sure enough I felt okay again. 

I was able to refocus my attention to what I want to call in and what is possible, and now I’m excited for this new chapter! 

I believe this was divine intervention for my dreams because I was in my comfort zone and it was time to expand. I’m grateful for the push. It made way for what I’ve been wanting and asking for, and strengthened my sense of self and confidence.

What you want, wants you too. Sometimes we have to make space for it to be the time. And space was made, for it to be the time for what l I’ve been manifesting for months.

I’m grateful for cultivating higher awareness and emotional regulation skills because regulating your emotions is vital for riding the unexpected waves of life and calling back your power. When we create home within ourself we can weather any storm. 

Life is a wild ride. We can hit turbulence when expanding and creating something new, and to get to the other side we have to feel okay in our body. Nervous system regulation allows us the ability to receive and hold more. Because if you’re not okay now and can’t handle what you already have, how can life give you more?

So this is a reminder to myself and you, we are human.

We crash out sometimes. It’s not about how we fall that matters, it’s about how we get back up. Having an emotional response to life and caring about things is normal. We can’t control our emotions. However, we do have power on how we react to them.